Ghost's in my Mind

I was at home for the weekend after a long time. I really had a good time with them. But the GHOSTS in my mind are still haunting me.

Few Observations of how I feel,

1. Even though the conscious mind aware of the truths, I sub-consciously pretend to believe it.

2. Even though i aware that i shouldn't think or do certain things, I thrive to do it or unable to stop that action.

3. Fear, Anxiety, lack of courage creeping up the mind.

4. Feeling jealous, irritated with people who are close to me without any reason. I often feel like that i should not see/meet them, but on the other hand wanted to be around them.

5. I can conclude that i am unstable and unable to take decisions, because of the inability, financial situation and personal/romantic life's stress.