I was at home for the weekend after a long time. I really had a good time with them. But the GHOSTS in my mind are still haunting me.

Few Observations of how I feel,

1. Even though the conscious mind aware of the truths, I sub-consciously pretend to believe it.

2. Even though i aware that i shouldn't think or do certain things, I thrive to do it or unable to stop that action.

3. Fear, Anxiety, lack of courage creeping up the mind.

4. Feeling jealous, irritated with people who are close to me without any reason. I often feel like that i should not see/meet them, but on the other hand wanted to be around them.

5. I can conclude that i am unstable and unable to take decisions, because of the inability, financial situation and personal/romantic life's stress.

Humans are wrapped with emotions, creativity, dominance, cruelty and selfishness. Here the emotion includes love, anger, happiness, sorrow, etc. Have you ever noticed that we all are driven by these emotions throughout our lives? The environment and its effects determines the emotion we experience, it is scientifically called as psychophysiological experience – the influence of environment in our brain accompanied with chemical/hormonal reactions in our body.

During the childhood we all are influenced by the people, environments around us. Recent studies have concluded that this process starts when the foetus starts develops in its mother’s womb. How beautiful? We are learning from the very first day of our life and till our death, but still there are many things that we still need learn. Emotions are playing a vital role here.

We have been always told to live a life that somebody else already experimented and lived/living. Should we really follow this protocol? We are going to school, learning languages, then math, science, history, etc. And then it goes on like this college, career, work, love, marriage, family, money, children, their careers, grand children, death, and fulfilment. Is that all about life? Are we really going to be satisfied with this kind of life? Don’t we have to ask ourselves how much we have tried to understand the life and how often we searched the true purpose of life?

A typical adult gets up every day and go to school or work and spend his time there for 10 hours/day and then home, follow up works, some family time, TV or Internet, friends which will take 6 hours/day. And then 8 hours sleep. Doesn’t this sound like some machine which will run for the most of the day and take some rest and starts again the next day? Oh man, I am really pissed off with this routine life which is going to last till the end. I really hate the monotony of the life which we call as a standard life, which will definitely leads to frustration, anger, depression, etc in a longer. We are working hard to make money, to gain power, we compete with each to exceed in performance and for a better life. But we fail to lift the lives of other fellow human beings who don’t even have food to survive. Doesn’t it sounds like some old tales? Yes, we still have all those cave/hunter style life programmed in our brain. We strive hard to excel in everything and the better ones get better lives, which is simply survival of the fittest. In my next blog, let us see a lot about the lives of our ancestors and how cruelly they built nations, empires to gain power, attention and finally for a better live. It will give you a clear picture of “the true nature of humans”.

Human race is the youngest of all the races in the Earth. We have originated in Central Africa around 200,000 years ago. We are in a constant search of true meaning and purpose of life and from time to time many famous people gave explanations and ground rules to live. Are we satisfied with their explanations and philosophies? Does our human brain really accept it? It is a big question.

We are still in search of something in our life, say money, power, pride, happiness, love, etc. We are generally social animals and driven by people/objects around us throughout our life.

For many years our ancestors made us believe that religion is the only way to complete this life on Earth to attain the eternal life. Recent studies have concluded that religion will become extinct soon, since many people around the world started to claim no religious affiliations. So if religion is not the way to win the race of life, what else we have?

Forget Humans for now and take other animals. What is their ultimate goal of life? I strongly believe that they are living to save their race by multiplying and to keep the food chain intact. Is the same applicable to us? It may be true.

We will see a lot of controversial, thought provoking discussions like this from now on in this blog. I have decided to write this blog to share my thoughts, ideas, experiences and views . I believe we all are in the Labyrinth called “Life” which will always leads to the one single destination like in a Labyrinth called “death”.